I have decided to document the journey of how I ended up writing and releasing an album, I hope it will guide and motivate artists to create and everyone to live;
For too many years I had written bits and pieces of music or lyrics and every time I had done so, I would get a certain buzz! A buzz that I had written something good, something worth listening to.
Then, sadly the worst feeling imaginable would creep in - self doubt. Every time (sometimes as soon as 20 minutes later) I would tear up the scrawled on pieces of paper and assure myself that it or I simply wasn't good enough. This vicious cycle of self deprecation was holding me to ransom and was in turn generating the worst possible outcome - regret.
At the end of 2015 and start of 2016, I started the journey of finding out who I really was what I really wanted from this life. I had realised I was in a bad relationship, I had been dining out on previous glories of my youth instead of actually creating and applying myself in the present - I had lost my spark and was becoming “stale”.
I ended that relationship and started to rebuild who and what I was from the ground up. I began to see who my real friends were and I methodically removed anyone from my life who didn't enhance me. I stood up against the social engineering which for too long had dictated my existence.
I made a vow that I would never “kill” that “buzz” feeling of writing music ever again.
It was time to live, create and not care about the people who don't matter. But it was far from easy - as you will find out...